October

So, my life has been full of ups and downs lately. Illness in my extended family, my father and brother's dog coming to stay for a few weeks with us, Paul working in a very frustrating and stressful job, several big deadlines at work, several friends having babies and getting married (none doing both that I know of, though). I am tired and looking forward to having a night of relaxation tonight cuddling with Paul and watching a movie.

The last few services I have listened to (at different churches) have all had a common theme to them. They all deal with developing a relationship with God and functioning as the Body of Christ. It is not enough to say "Save me, God, I am a sinner" and then just go on living life as usual. We are called and compelled to communicate with God, read the Bible (his living word), and to live in communion with his people as one Body. I realize these sermons were for me - I have been on autopilot lately and wondering why I feel distant from God.

So, I started a devotional book last night and reading my Bible at home. I hope I can keep reading on a daily basis as a first step towards recentering my life on God. I realize I don't have a problem with God running my life, my problem is giving Paul and his life to God instead of me worrying about it. So, that is what I will strive for. I will have faith and seek God and strive to connect with a church family. And I will pray that God directs my path and also touches Paul's heart.